will you tie my laces?

i love that simple gestures from another person, regardless of the intimacy of the aquaintance can truly change your day. regardless of whether these gestures makes a positive or negative change.
hmm. humans really were not made to be self-reliant. in saying that, why the fuck should we be subsurvient to people around us when we can't cater to our own needs and serve ourselves. or help ourselves. gah.
holy fuck what did i just write. man i'm losing the plot.

... (L)

so, i finally set up my 'fashion blog'...
and uhhh, i'd appreciate getting some followers ^_^
and yes.
that's all i really have to say on the matter,
except i probably won't be so lazy with it as i am this blog...
so yeah
come stalk me over there ;)
(y)

www.trashi0nista.blogspot.com

vomit

i wish i wouldn't remember you in the morning.

i feel sick

i hate the fact that you're not yourself anymore. why do you need to impress them him. if he doesn't want you for who you are, then what makes him worthy?
nobody likes a fake. but then, i guess everyone's a liar.
*shrug*

strength

i think i can, i think i can
i wish i could, i wish i could

I Write Sins Not Tragedies

I was tagged by Annabel, who did a list of 21 things about herself on her page. She then tagged Katie and I, to also make a list of 21 things about ourselves. And I don't think I can be bothered to tag 21 people, so if you read this and want to do this; just blog it or comment this post for me to read. I also don't think theres 21 interesting things about me?

1. One of my piercings has a fair amount of pus in it. I think it might be infected?
2. I think I have developed a crush on a fictional character from every book I've read and every movie I've watched.
3. When school gets to me, I think of my 'future plan/aspiration' with Annabel :)
4. I was bitterly dissapointed/devastated when I discovered Pokemon wasn't real, and that I could never be a real Pokemaster. Same goes with wizards. And vampires.
5. I am destined to be alone forever.
6. I start worrying about my outfits to events the day I find out I'm going.
7. I set goals and to do lists for myself because i like crossing things off :)
8. The only reason I wanted my own car was so I could burn my own cd's and listen to good music when I drive.
9. I walk on my toes (I secretly do it to look taller)
10. I am a yoga and pilates enthusiast. Ohmmmmmmm.
11. Nothing shits me more than drivers that don't indicate (especially when they're merging)
12. My nail polish is ALWAYS, WITHOUT FAIL chipped. I know it's tacky, but I don't do it on purpose.
13. The first thing I do when I wake up, is write in this little blue planner I have, what I dreamt of.
14. People tend to believe I was 'azn' in my former life. (and a nun)
15. Flat chested is best!
16. I read my horoscope every day
17. I lost my car in a carpark once. I couldn't remember where I left it lol *shrug*
18. I love movies! Probably because I always wish my life was like one?
19. I have a severe addiction/obsession. I can't shake it. It's actually a really big problem :S
20. Nothing in the world, literally nothing, compares to standing in a mosh, watching your favourite bands.
21. I'm really not that interesting.

acceptance

words fail me.

of love and shadows

hands creeping up skirts in dark corners
head jobs in disabled toilets

CHERRY PIE

la la laaaa ^^,
i'm super happy!
i got my car woohooo
she's soooooooo cute!
&& you should hear my baby purrrrr

SO HAPPY :)

where'd it all go wrong, the list goes on and on

force them down, it's the only way out.
promise!

finite.

you
make
me
feel
fucking
invisible

LOL

i think it's hilarious that i don't remember writing my previous post, and that it makes about 0 sense.

lololol.

dizzy

can't see five inches before my face
my head aches

(U)

you're my worst nightmare incessant thought. get out of my head.

IDEA

engrave your name under my skin with that infected needle.
carve my lies onto your tongue with my dirty blade.



... so, how about that?

CHOKE

i'll be so far gone, i won't even remember my your name.

you suck

everyone should quit their bitching about australia not being worthy of having a holiday to celebrate.
errr if that's how you feel, gtfo of this country ?
all you fucking 'hectic ethnics' need to grow up.



but everyone else
happy australia day :)

RESISTANCE

i promise to remain only a figment of your imagination.

*INTERNALLY COMBUSTS*

omg, CALEB FOLLOWILL, PLEASE just make love to me.














eargasm to:

• closer
• the bucket
• where nobody knows
• trani
• red morning light
• i want you
• be somebody

that should keep you busy for a while! >_>

i miss you...

i hate not knowing what i want anymore, the fact that in such a short period of time, everything has changed.
i'm scared of what will happen if i continue to tread this path, but i'm scared of what won't happen if i change my route.
argh. i just don't know what to do to be happy. not even, just to stay happy. because i've had the best few weeks in a really long time, but at the same time, some of the people i wish i could be spending it with, i'm haven't. :(
it's selfish, but at least i had the time to try and sort myself out somewhat, get my head in a better place than it WAS... now all i do is try to fix those relationships i've let down.
if you know who you are... i'm sorry... i'm going to do everything i can to fix us.

DENIAL

i'm protecting you from the fight. relax, it's easy to overcome addiction.

SALT

you can't sift through the thoughts you've shaken up in my head?

swm man :)

CANDY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

established 9/1/2009


yyyeeeahhh duff man

sleepovers and alcopops :)

:)
i don't think i've had as much fun as i'm having this week. ever.

COCONUT

my body isn't fragile, my mind isn't delicate and my emotions aren't unstable
...so why is it you're holding me in pieces?

sticky tape

goodnight, annabel* says:
dude seriously get a good cam

goodnight, annabel* says:
we can do awesomestuff

goodnight, annabel* says:
and when i say awesome stuff
dont think i mean like shitty birthday videos like this one

goodnight, annabel* says:
i mean like

binkapalooza@cubbyhouse®! - is going to be knackers says:
pornos

goodnight, annabel* says:
hardxxxxcore porn

vous aimez?

i'm tired of playing your games. you win.

je veux

MARSHMALLOW

i'm craving that sweet rush, i need a quick fix.

eve

i think it's only appropriate that i wish everyone well with the message that graced the first half of my mobile's contact list (before i deleted everything and forgot what i had written)

Happy nEW Year all.
Thamkxou for all xou have done for me, i love you so much amd am so blesd t6 spendimp anotger yer wit you all.
Have a wonderfvl niht!!! Xxx

(which became: Hapy new xear all my loues xxxx)

i'm pretty sure that's in the true spirit of NYE celebration.